But, where was my heart? Buried. Two weeks ago I got a shovel. It was in the dark of the night as I lay in my husband's arms that I cried for all that we have lost. Two dogs in less than three years. My soul dog just two months ago, and here I was talking about a new puppy. When you know the outcome how do you get back on the merry go round? And in the dark, with his voice cracking my beloved said to me, "because the love is worth the pain." Yes, the love is worth the pain so let's get back on. Dig your heart out of your grief to give it fresh and new to a brand new soul.
I've found my breeder and if all goes well the puppy will be here at the end of spring.
For now, though, I will enjoy the present moment. I will enjoy my sweet spot with my brown dog. What is the sweet spot? The time when your dog knows you. Knows the rules, makes wise choices, loves you and GETS you. This time is our chance to bond deeper with him as an individual not as a member of the pack. To give him ALL our attention before he has to share us with a pup.
A dear friend recently said to me, "I wish you the peace of simply living your days as they unfold, neither rushing ahead or regretting where you have been." Right now, I am living my days with my brown dog, appreciating what we have. I'm not over the moon excited about a new puppy yet. There is time for that. Today? Today I am enjoying my sweet spot with Stanley.